Today was a pretty good food day. Not perfect, but at least no binging! What a struggle I've had with binging! Ugh! I'll have a particularly bad experience, and swear I won't do it again, and yet days later, there I go! It just doesn't make sense! I guess I truly do have an addiction.... I cannot say no once I start eating sugar, flour or wheat!
Today I had:
B - millet, pineapple, berries, yogurt & turkey
L - salad, extra scoop of coconut oil, mayo, salsa, yogurt, fish, butternut squash
D - cooked veggies, homemade tomato sauce, chicken, barley (extra bites of veggies & chicken)
MA - orange, yogurt
I ate my MA before going to the gym tonight. That worked well. I actually walked on the treadmill this morning, too, but I think twice a days are good to keep me out of the kitchen. I justify the extra oil based on the extra exercise. I did spinning & pump at th gym. I feel good tonight.
I am hoping that this will keep me more accountable. I will journal when I feel weak. I will try to find ways to avoid the feeling of being deprived when I am around others who are eating things I can't. (vacation last week triggered the beginning of my latest binges - then having people over to my house last night with appetizers triggered my latest binge).
I am trying to decide whether to go to a specialist in hormones next week. $225 per visit. Hmm.
I pray that God takes this disorder away from my life.... I struggle with thoughts that I need to quit denying myself all sugar, flour and wheat and have it in moderation - knowing that I cannot.
I look forward to this experience of blogging!
Blessings -
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